今天的主題曲


暴風雪把公路的行車線掩蓋,夜行司機滑落溝渠,小型泥頭車零晨在行人路上撒小石,博士在門前剷雪。一個城市的冬日,一個冬日的家常小事。大片大片的雪花夾著雨,一晚間又凝結成處處溜冰場。在方芳眼中無比的好玩,放學後的花園一天一地白、一堆膠剷和桶、一個跟在尾巴的小妹妹。一小時後進來,連全身夾拿衣厚包裹下的長褲也盡濕,冷嗎悠悠?蘋果臉點點頭,好玩嗎悠悠?好好玩呀媽媽!

好玩就得了。

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1945年1月27日,六十五年前的今天,她如常起來,無希望的另一天,可奇怪了,早餐大鐘沒有響…. 那一個早上,蘇軍衝入集中營Auschwitz,把七千名猶太人釋放,歷史畸胎納粹魔終於完蛋。

每逢讀到有關新聞,都會記起去年夏天在柏林,那二千幾塊如墓碑的混凝土團,然後不消半秒,思緒自然彈起東方的幕幕,每次這一刻,我總以身為中國人感到無比奇恥。

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繼續讀報。

瑞典經濟復甦比預期中快,連財政司長也表示意外。昨晚的暴風雪,阻不了車城Trollhättan 市民的歡愉,被GM殘了的Saab,本來要面臨倒閉,突然殺出個荷蘭買手,一夜間接捧全城打工仔差點沒跌個崩爛的飯碗,阿彌陀佛。汽車工業是瑞典其中一堅柱,不死不死這些年來直坐過山車,前陣子中國財團有興趣收購Volvo貨車,把勢死駐守北歐開揚自由法的瑞典人嚇個半死,不想不想,連總公司也想盡辦法以瑞典幣買回瑞典貨,有點點「要死也死在祖國」的浪漫,事實是不想富豪皮大陸骨,那骨,無氣的,何來驅向前。

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我又真墮落,好好的開電腦便給它抓著喉頭,居然又再一次為蘋果的又一魔法幻品咬牙切齒,又又又,發了好些如悠悠黃昏累相的牢騷,想起王菲的墮落,她自己寫的詞:

沒有別的想法
只想放縱一下
就當沒發現
美好背後的虛假
敷衍著靈魂
勉強地掙扎

就點給自己聽,今天的主題曲。

13 thoughts on “今天的主題曲

  1. Might sound a bit irrelevant to you folks…

    I went to a conference in Dec 2008… One of the presentations was given by a researcher from Volvo, the track divsion. I was really impressed by the amount of work they had done on making their truck a ‘greener’ vehicle… If Volvo is bought out by the chinese, I think this level of R&D activity will immediately disappear from Volvo… sad, sad, sad…

    1. very relevant in fact!

      The Swedish industries are among the first in the world to focus on green innovation. The recycling mentality is rooted from kindergarten. Yau Yau has to learn to sort garbage.

      But i always wonder: does a tiny country as Sweden’s full effort in household recycling really contribute a portion to the global need? my husband was sure about that: no, but we still have to do it.

      The Chinese, the karma. That’s what I have to say.

  2. have you read the paper today? there is speculation that faye’s concert tickets will be as expensive as HK$1500 (for the best seats)…

    1. a friend cut n paste to me. i replied: of cos! she is faye wong. she can charge that high price but i wont pay. i cant.

      then i went on daydreaming: that i met her and asked her to take a photo with me. the photo came out: she looks as cool as always, n i was staring at her as if i was in love with her.

      then i finally got over my being not able to fly to hk n pay the 1,500. i’m fine, thanks faye!

      1. haha! i had a discussion with my sis earlier tonight. and she (as a rich young lady!!) also said she won’t go, if that is really the final ticket price.

        anyway, $1500 x 3 (me + husband + sis) is more than enough to buy an ipad la!!

      2. i was in fact calculating: 4k can do a lot. add a bit more plus a little bit luck, i might hunt a tix to hk already.

        i totally overcome it after a few days now, after talking to my man who doesn’t understand y apple products cost so much more than PC, after consulting my apple expert friend. i should sell my Newton and wait for a later generation, that’s the advice i got. yes i got a Newton ah!the ancestor of all palm pilot devices. how i was an apple gadget freak, in my previous life!!

        and i know by that day, the Nth generation of iPad would fly in front of my eyes like a transparent ghost. ha!it has happened all the way: from macbook, macbook air, ipod, iphone.

        i m still i, with my good old white ibook with a modem cable. maybe i just get hold of an airport for it and can surf wireless forever.

      3. newton!!!!! you still have that? man, you are really a fans, and you were rich also🙂 i talked about newton in my marketing class, and of cos none of my students have heard about it…

  3. thanks for sharing the ipad video – i was too lazy to search earlier today🙂

    i think we’ve all seen similar things on movies, and then apple really made it available for everyone (well, i am only worried about the data charges). amazing!

    1. isn’t it!!! it is driving me crazy…
      i was told that i am obssessed in apple more than shoes, haha:D
      i guess i could make a devoted sales to both wordpress and apple:)

  4. 讀你的字,感受你的內心掙扎(不過能寫出來都已經不再是內心囉…),我只希望你這個Buddhist-wannabe 有朝真能覓得內心平靜呀。
    但到時你又會唔會嫌悶呢?

    1. 我有樣好,就是無記性,癲完又好快過。寫出來的確有自療功效,我寫得勤其實可能代表我癲得密,不一定是好事,死未。

    1. Gwen: 我這樣看,現在瑞典生活,瑞典便是我的國家,我的家。

      香港是家人、朋友和美食的集中地,我不會再嚮往在那裡生活了,真相是就算以前有青春有份工,也未能真正舒展身心,當一個生活平衡、心靈滿足的人。
      當了母親是生命最大得著,歡迎你加入!只要和你的愛人家人一起,那裡都是好地方!

      至於祖國,早抖罷。

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